Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Life's Dram is but a Quarter dry


Sitting here in the Boston Logan Airport, literally in the shadow of a 6-foot-tall "sculpture" of a Dunkin Donuts "coffee." I don't put scare quotes on DD's saccharine-sprinkled, malarial-swamp version of the sacred skittish water because I'm snobbish about coffee- in fact Harrison recently revealed unto me the dark magic of Folger's Black Silk Coffee, which retails for about $4 a pound. Its spot in front of the International Departures ticketing counters is really fitting, as it's hard to imagine a better 6 foot symbolic spur to encourage people to get far far away from this country. Unless, the Daughters of the American Revolution paid this guy to hand out greasy Apocalyptic pentacostal pamphlets while topless.


Anyway, I received a really special birthday present in the form of a dispelled long-held belief regarding brains. Stemming from a psychology class I had back in high school, I had always thought that by the age of 25 the brain had substantially reduced the overall number of neurons (peaking in adolescence) in order to optimize efficiency at the expense of interconnectivity and plasticity. Apparently that is false, which is good news because I still can't speak a foreign language or play a musical instrument- though I'm working on both (I swear!).



Lastly, I just now thought up the idea of the Whiskey Vital (play on Uisge-beatha ['water of life' in gaelic]- meaning a bottle of scotch distilled in the year I was born from which I will take a hundred-part (7.5mL) each year a progressively more delicious and dire reminder of:

"Whether at Naishapur or Babylon,
Whether the Cup with sweet or bitter run,
The Wine of Life keeps oozing drop by drop,
The Leaves of Life keep falling one by one. "

Friday, December 10, 2010

La Cucina Povera Pt 2

This is what I ended up doing

I call it 'Box wine & Morel Ribollita alla Genovese'

rehydrating the dried morels in box wine with a bit of smoked green tea leaves thrown in
taking more of the tea leaves, plus whole peppercorns from the hand mill, powderized in the coffee grinder
spice powder added to smoked paprika, mixed with flour
dredged the morels in the spiced flour, reserved soaking liquid
pan fry the shrooms in olive oil - when browned, remove to paper towel
mix shredded carrots with honey, some of the soaking liquid, garlic paste, and bit of balsamic vin.
sweat the carrot mixture in the oil
add chopped baby carrots, then crushed tomatoes, cover with chicken stock
simmer until carrots soft
add macaroni sans cheese powder
simmer until cooked through
thickened with cubes of stale hotdog bun

meanwhile

reduced remainder of mushroom soak liquid to consistency of syrup
mixed with remainder of pesto

add dollops of the morel/green tea box-wine reduction + pesto to the soup
serve with splash of olive oil

Necessity + Poverty = interesting sandwiches


I'm back in my actual apartment for the weekend, having spent the week in temporary housing provided by the medical school during my outpatient pediatrics rotation in Manchester, NH about an hour away. Being broke, with my kitchen staples divided between two residences, has left me with an interesting dilemma - namely how to feed myself on the cheap. So I decided to make a game out of it, creating meals today with only what I can scrounge from the pantry, cabinets, and fridge - i.e. out of condiments, old spices, and things not eaten for a variety of reasons (and which happen to have a near infinite shelf life). So far:

Breakfast:
Scrambled egg tortilla wrap with basil salsa
using:
the last 3 eggs in the apt
whole grain mustard
sharp cheddar cheese dried to the consistency of parmigiano
juice from a jar of capers
the 2nd to last tortilla
last of the premade pesto
and Kahlua

I scrambled the eggs mixed with the grated cheese, mustard, smoked paprika and S&P, wrapping them in the pan- toasted tortilla, then drizzled with a sauce made from the pesto, caper juice, and a dash of kahlua - which sounds strange but came out strangely wonderful.

Lunch:
Tuna melts

stale wheat bread
last cans of chunk tuna in water
capers
whole grain mustard
hippie organic vermont salad dressing
fresh cracked pepper
Velveeta "cheese"

Having used my last egg, I replaced the usual mayonnaise with a mixture of stone ground mustard, capers, and something called "Goddess" organic salad dressing. The I shaved some velveeta from a 2 pound block - a legacy of my room mate Kendall- and toasted the sandwiches in the panini press for a surprisingly decent lunch.

The interesting meal will be dinner, as protein sources are running low along with, well, everything else. I may have to break down and buy some supplies with the change from the floor board of my car.

But I still have:
1 can crushed tomatoes
boxes of kraft mac n cheese
1 tortilla
3 slices of stale bread
some dried morel mushrooms
1 quart chicken stock
half a bag of old baby carrots
spices, and condiments

I will think on this and keep you posted.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

an infamous list

i) Nikki and I have decided to incorporate a not-for-profit together- which will basically be a repository for donations we can use to give away to charities we support, buy supplies for food pantries, books & art supplies for kids, and the like. It will take us a while to get the paperwork filed but until then, rather than than giftcards, or clothing, I'd like to request small donations with the designation "To Be Given Away."

ii)
1 Tyrolean hat (size yet to be determined)

iii)
1 Badger Bristle Brush


iv) Fiddle + guitar lessons

v) language lessons

vi) beer brewing supplies

vii) money to set aside for travel

Sunday, August 29, 2010

"the gurney piloted out, its wobbly wheel painting a sanguinous serpentine stripe"




This post is a bit overdo but it's taken me until this slow, long weekend to accrue enough sleep to have the energy to tell stories.  So without further ado,

I was on call last week at the Dartmouth Hitchcock Med. Ctr., the academic center of the Dartmouth med school and the only level 1 trauma center in region between Boston and Burlington VT.  Generally, surgery call consists of trying to steal snippets of sleep next to a half eaten sandwich and a never-opened textbook, being paged intermittently to the emergency room for traumas arriving by ambulance or helicopter.  Usually the page precedes the trauma arrival by 15-45 minutes depending on the situation, giving the pagees time to make their way to the trauma bay and 'suit up', which entails pulling on layers of lead aprons, impermeable gowns, gloves, face masks and hoods while readying fluids, medications, and imaging equipment.  This happens for every trauma of a sufficient urgency, regardless of the patient's condition.  So sometimes I will wait in a crowded room sweating, only to have a completely conscious (usually drunk) guy with a bruised head yelling about why he shouldn't be here as he vomits on everyone.  Cases like this are anticlimactic and frustrating, not that I'm angling for people to be obliterated by motor vehicles, but if I'm going to lose an hour of sleep I'd like to at least learn (or suture) something.  

So the other night, after a couple of these pukey/boozy dudes, I arrived a bit late to a trauma page and since the room was nearly full, took the advice of my intern and went to see a patient in the walk-in side of the ED for a suspected hernia.  After examining this patient I returned to the workroom next to the trauma bay, which was oddly silent and empty.  I didn't make anything of this until I noticed that my resident's coat, and face, shoes, and floor beneath the shoes were covered in flecks, and spots, and splashes of cartoonishly red blood. As I was processing this image, she put her hand on my shoulder and said, "GO TO THE O.R., WE CRACKED A GUY'S CHEST IN THE TRAUMA BAY. RUN."  And so I took off at a dead sprint through the ER, up the stairs into the operating suite, pulling on a mask and following the ever widening path of maraschino cherry-red blood into the last and largest OR in the hospital.  The operating table looked more like a meat counter than anything else, with intestines like link sausages being efficiently parsed and bundled over a moist quivering mass of shuddering human meat.  As I put on gloves, I was told that the patient had apparently been struck by a car and found unresponsive by the ambulance crew.  His blood pressure had bottomed out once in the helicopter and again in the ER, necessitating the opening of his chest like an old dictionary to look for an obvious and easily reversible cause of bleeding.  When none was found, the surgeon took hist fist and jammed it into the man's torso until his aorta, a blood vessel the size of most household pipes, was compressed against the spine- maximizing the blood flow to the brain at the expense of the (relatively) expendable lower half of the body, as they sprinted his gurney into the elevator for emergency surgery.  

Now, aside from the excitement of the sheer brutality and turmoil of the events, for the medical people involved in a situation like this there exists an additional sub current of tension- namely the knowledge that an open thoracotomy in a blunt trauma situation (like this one) carries a >95% mortality rate.   With a steady stream of arterial spray escaping the left lung, the trauma surgeon and chief resident took turns compressing the aorta was the other gowned and gloved.  After the first few minutes they signaled for me and my classmate to scrub in to help hold the organs and steel retractors as they searched for controllable sources of bleeding.




I stepped in, my waist against the open right chest wall, wielding the hand suction as the chief resident stapled off a mangled chunk of lung and systematically inspected the surfaces of the heart and chest wall for pulsing arteries.  Once the spurting from the lung was resolved, and the heart itself cleared of punctures, he dove his fingertips into the constantly filling crater-lake of blood between the heart and left lung as I tried to clear his view by holding back the beating heart while applying suction.  For the next 15 minutes we grappled to tie off the internal mammary artery, famous for it's use as in Coronary Artery Bypass Grafting, or CABG, which had been transected when the man's chest was ripped open.  Apparently this vessel the size of the small end of a chopstick, has a nasty habit of withdrawing into the sternum when cut, which with the poor view afforded by the angle and blood and swelling organs, made controlling it a small nightmare.  It was my job to suction away the blood while retracting the heart as the chief swung an inch long curved needle, almost blindly, toward the spastically hyperdynamic heart.  This required a tiny, frenetic and intricately timed dance, darting the suction tip in front of the needle just as the heart squeezed and the lungs fell with exhalation, lingering just enough to remove the blood without obstructing the brief window of visibility that would allow the vessel to be grasped and oversewn.   After several failed attempts and an ever alarming amount of pressure being applied to man's already overburdened heart, we suceeded in controlling the bleeding just as the cardiothoracic surgeon arrived to transition the operation from damage control to reconstruction.

I stepped out, put my hands on my knees and nearly passed out.  As I stood and began to pace to shrug off the feeling of being deep underwater, my pager went off calling me back to the ER for another trauma...


Sunday, August 22, 2010

A wild ride

Since I last posted:

I spent the last day of my medicine clerkship at the Buncke Clinic in San Francisco: home of the late Harry Buncke, the father of microsurgery and the first to reconstruct a thumb by transferring a big toe to a patient's hand. The clinic is now run by his son Greg Buncke who kindly allowed me to tag along for the day and meet his team.



The next day I threw my things into a bag and jumped the red eye flight back to boston. After a bus ride (ie long nap) I arrive in Hanover, retrieved my car which -thankfully- started, and headed to my new address:


27 old etna rd.
Lebanon, NH 03766





The past 10 days have been spent moving in, finishing Medicine, beginning Surgery at the local VA hospital, and generally not sleeping much. Two days ago I finished my second call shift at the Dartmouth ER, which means about 36 straight sleepless hours when it's a busy night (it was). After passing out at 8pm I awoke, drove to Rhode Island, and am now on an island somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean typing in a cafe to 80's music.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

An undeniable fact is

...that more than once in 24 years I've woken up to realize that I'm in exactly the place I would choose to be, over any other, and that makes me one of the more fortunate human beings alive. Evidence:





another fact is that this is mostly thanks to the people reading this blog.